You have been falling asleep on your own and sleep through the night since you were almost 2 month old. Since last week, on nights when you fall asleep with your last bottle and I put you in your crib, you wake up after 30mins crying with your eyes closed (this doesnt happen if I put you in the crib with your eyes open and you fall asleep on your own). I imagine you get confused, one minute you are snuggling with mama and the next you are all alone, it breaks my heart, but I dont have the heart to wake you up after you fall asleep either. So all I can do is go in and hold you, you never open your eyes, but you calm down and go back to sleep again, you know mama came in and you know she is right here when you need her. Tonight it happened again, when I was holding you in the rocking chair you reached your arm up and held my face, you kept your sweet little hand touching my cheeks, and I just died once again, because I cant explain how this started how I fell madly in love with you and you have my whole life, not just my face, in the palm of your hand, I'm forever yours.
Love Mama
