FFF- Thankful

This week I want to say how thankful I'm for him:

My first big gift from God, he is not perfect, but works hard everyday to be the best husband, father, doctor and human being he could be!

And has the sweetest soul I've ever met, I will forever thank God for bringing him to my life.

And thank Him, because when I though I couldnt fell more in love with him, I watched him become a father and got to witness an even more amazing guy!

I love you Bayohan, and it keeps getting bigger and stronger!

Mother's Day

It's Mother's Day here in DR, so I want to say Happy Mother's Day to all my readers, the ones that have children, the ones that have lost theirs and the ones that are looking for them!
Bayo's birthday is always close to the last sunday of May, so every year after Mother's Day lunch, we sing Happy Birthday to my sweet Hubby :) It's a tradition even if it doesnt fall on the exact same date!

I was to lazy to find 2008 and 2009 :p

The last 3 years the cake has look the same way, we love cake from that place, so why change it!

FFF- U pick

This picture was not taken this week, but since today is my sweet hubby's birthday, I get to share him with you :)

Sorry but he is taken!

Happy Birthday, you are my gift from above, I love you!

His win...

Bayohan bought a new toy...He wins!
But I sadly lost my husband...

Sharing

Until last week Bayo hasnt really been open about talking about the miscarriage, I mean he talks but tries to avoid the subject shutting down his feelings about it. I belong to a miscarriage december 2009 group and apparently is a commun behavior of the guys. I just let it go and wouldnt bring up the subject around him.
Last week he showed me something he wrote and I wanted to share it with all of you (with his consent, of course). Sorry if the translation is not that good :)

A drop of life died inside my wife, we loved it, no one wanted to spread it into the nothing, a drop of life brought us so much happiness for a couple of months and then went away without letting us know, in a sudden way, like a mute flower that withers, like a sordid wound that left us with his silent and subtle departure, the day I found out it existed my life changed deeply, I even wrote it a letter, it was what I desired the most, my life need it him… even if it looks like something else, I haven’t forgotten you, little piece of me… forgive me… now I get lost in this fear, I fell apart sometimes and others I try to live. Sometimes I wonder how you were, if you look like me or Vane, or if you were the perfect mix of both of us, sometimes I have to pretend I am tough so your mother can get over your lost, but in my loneliness is an empty father that has lost you and I suffer… I remember when I took you to the doctor and everything was fine… you know I loved you no matter what you were, that I was willing to change my life without thinking because you were born, my son I wanted to teach you so many things, come back, allow me to meet you… bring me back my life my dear… beloved prince… my universe is to have you cuddle between Vane and I… my biggest desire, my mayor realization. You won’t know how much I think of you, dream of you and need you. God should have waited until your mommy and I could have seen you… you are my whole world my son, come and justify me… come and complete your mommy… if only you would know the agony my soul has because I couldn’t give her a baby… your mommy is waiting for you… Vane is all life and only wishes to have you in her arms alive… I am life and I still love you before you can be… some day my little boy we will all be dead but it wont matter because life never ends… and I love you too much to forget you…
A father without his little prince… Bayo-10


Una gota de vida murió dentro de mi esposa, la queríamos, nadie quiso esparcirla en la nada, una gota de vida nos trajo tanta alegría por un par de meses y luego se fue sin avisar, de manera súbita, como una flor muda que se marchita como una sórdida herida como la que nos dejo con su silente y sutil partida, el día que supe que existía mi vida cambio profundamente, hasta le había hecho una carta, es que lo deseaba tanto, mi vida lo necesitaba…aunque parezca otra cosa, no te he olvidado, partecita de mi…perdóname…ahora en este miedo me pierdo, me desgarro a veces y otras trato de vivir. Me pregunto a veces como eras, si te parecías a mi o a Vane, o si eras la mezcla perfecta de los dos, a veces tengo que hacerme el duro para que tu madre supere tu perdida bien, pero en mi soledad queda un padre vacío que te ha perdido y sufro…recuerdo cuando te llevaba donde la doctora y todo iba bien…sabes que te amaba fueras lo que fueras, que cambiaria mi vida sin pensarlo por que hubieras nacido, hijo mío te he querido enseñar tantas cosas, vuelve, déjame conocerte…devuélveme la vida querido mío…principito amado…mi universo es tenerte acurrucado entre Vane y yo… es mi total anhelo, es mi realización mayor. No sabes lo que te pienso y te sueno y te necesito. Dios debió esperar hasta que te pudiéramos ver tu mami y yo…eres todo mi mundo hijo mío, ven y justifícame…ven y completa a tu mami…si supieras la angustia que llevo en mi alma por no haberle dado un bebe…tu mami te espera…Vane es toda vida y solo anhela tenerte vivo en sus manos…yo soy vida aun y te amo antes de que estés…algún día hijito estemos muertos pero no importa porque la vida no muere…te amo demasiado como para olvidarte…
Un padre sin principito…Bayo-10

A good day...

Things have not been easy lately, I've been having my emotionals ups and downs, and I know it makes it even harder on Bayohan's feelings... who would have thought that healing was so hard, but it is, and we are making it work, one day at the time, and I feel more conected to my husband than ever.
But today was a good day, like the old times kind of day, we went out and got together with friends, just spend the afternoon having a good conversation with people we love and miss. This is Ella, my sweet niece, and we got to spend the day with her and her parents (our friends).
We had a good day... actually a great one!

A picture of a picture...

I'm in Puerto Rico, just came here for a couple of days for issues related with the doctors that are going in april and bringing tons of equipment and medicine, yay!
Anyways I am staying at Fonsy's mom house (Bayo's aunt) and found this cute picture of Bayo and his cousins (Fonsy -Gabby's mom- is the wonder woman in the middle- and next to her is Bayo's other cousin and Fonsy's brother) Here is why I took a picture of a picture, aint my boy cute (he is the one in the left) and I though this picture of him was so sweet, my sweet boy hasnt changed much :)

And compare Fonsy and Gabby's pics they look so much alike!

3 years later... Still in love!

3 years ago was really one of the happiest days of my life, I honestly could relive this day over and over!

I still belive you are God's gift to me... I love you Bayohan!

Stone

Thanks for all the well wishes for Bayohan :)

The sonogram showed that it was just a renal stone (in a way thanks God), they gave him some meds for the pain and to eliminate the stone, so we are heading back to Los Cacaos this afternoon!

not for what I would like to :(

We had to come home today, but not for Gabby's birthday (I did got to see him a bit); we are here bacause Bayo is sick, he got a really bad abdominal ache and we had to take him to the hospital, ironic because we work in one but is not ethic to treat your own hubby so...
They gave him some meds and send him home, they are doing an abdominal sonogram tomorrow morning, lets just hope it is not something bad.

Back home!

There are no post from los Cacaos this time, because the electricity was a mess this week and I couldnt charge my camera or my laptop.
This weekend home is the usual, a lot of people to visit, tons of things to do before we leave and time just goes by to fast!!!
I promess I will write down things I want to share this upcoming week to able to post more next time we are back.

FFF- Favorite Guy!

This week's theme for FFF is actually your favorite picture of the week, we couldnt take any pics this week because our battery charger is broken and we are cheap enough to not buy regular ones until we get a new charger :p

But still I wanted to share my favorite guy EVERY WEEK, my gift from God :)

My tough cookie with a marshmallow heart :)

I feel old...

Bayo and I went out last night to this place we've been hearing for sometimes, they play really good old music (90's and 80's), the music was great and the place, but it was full of really young people and we really looked old in there, I was like what are they doing here, they probably dont even know those songs LOL!
The funnier thing was that they kept looking at us probably thinking what are those oldies doing in here :p

Funny Babies!!

Take 2 cute little kids and mix them up and you get some quite funny looking babies...

This is Bayohan when he was little.

This is me (Vanessa).

I was a real cutey!!

Here is the boy:

And the girl is here:I think the girl is cute and looks like me :p Bayo thinks they are both scary looking, LOL!!!

We will have to wait and see what the real deal looks like ;)

I Know, I Know...

Bayohan is probably going to kill me for this, but I HAD to do this!!!
Get a good laugh out of it, I know I did :p

Send your own ElfYourself eCards

Two Years Together

Today is our second year anniversary (the year of the cotton), I have spend the last two years married to one of the most wonderful man on earth –I know we all say the same about our hubbies or boyfriends- but to me he is, we have gone thru’ a lot in the last two years: crappy only to survive jobs, studying for the United State Medical License Examination and we still keep on going, sigh!!

A lot of tears but also a lot of smiles and happy unforgettable moments… I can’t say it enough: there is no one I rather go thru’ all of this but YOU –Bayohán.
I love you with all my heart and I will never let go…

The little angels in this pic were the souvenirs –favors- of our wedding.

You are probably wondering what this picture is… Well, is something Bayo and I did on our honeymoon.

At the hotel we were staying they had this stand where you could do some pottery painting. We picked this small jewelry thing and painted it ourselves; we really treasure this little thing.

All of the colors where carefully though of and everything in it has a meaning, it is something inexpensive that reminds me of our love…

We use it to put my engagement ring and our weeding rings.

Happy two year anniversary for Bayo and Me :D!

2 Years Ago...

Meet My Husband

Living Locurto hosted a "Meet My Husband Day", I am a little late but decided to do it anyways :D, you can meet her Hubby here.

Bayohán is his second name, he has a first name that he hates so much that I’m not even posting it here, that is how much I love him; he was born and raised in Dominican Republic, in Santo Domingo, but the first 2 years of his life where spend between here and Santiago (so he is an Aguilucho, just like me –that is the baseball team from the north of DR).

He has 1 brother and 1 half sister and he is attach to his family, just a little!!

He used to work on TV and earned a scholarship to study cinematography, he is really good at it, and he also studied theater and was the best of his class. Thanks God he decided to go into Med school (this is where we met).

He’s a General Practitioner (MD) but wants to do OB/GYN.

My mother is always saying he likes to look to good and it is true, he loves to dress to impress and is really self conscious about his looks. HE GOT STYLE!!!!

Not much of a sport person but he loves going to the gym and working out. He used to play baseball when he was younger.

He loves everything anything Mafia related, and he is obsess with his Scarface game I got him last Xmas. My little boy!!

He can go to sleep so easily and wakes up everyday really EARLY, at least for me :p

A Coffee lover!

Really smart and knows a lot about history and tons of cool facts and he is constantly investigating new things, he reads like 5 different newspapers every morning while I sleep (I told you he wakes up early).

He is a perfectionist.

He loves Mangu (Mashed plantain) and fried cheese, which is his fav meal ever. And of course a good lasagna!!

He has a smile that can buy anyone he meets he has so much charisma, he can talk to anyone so easily.

He is FUNNY; no you don’t understand he is REALLY FUNNY!

We share a love for going to toy stores and seeing new toys, we both love a good beer and a good talk :D

His fav movie is Scarface, and the English Patient. He has read every book from Borges.

He asked me to marry him on my birthday, 3 month after we started dating, we knew each other for 4 years by that time and he says that since the first time he saw me he knew he would marry me, what a sweetheart.

He is a great writer and poet.

Ever since we’ve been together I’ve known that I want him to be the father of my kids (he is a great man and will make a great father). You should hear him talking about when he has his kids, it makes my heart melt.

He was sick on our honeymoon but made sure we had a great time anyways, he is always trying to make me happy.

My husband is a wonderful man, a gift from God to me, he always wakes me up with a kiss, never forgets the things I like and he complements me in so many ways, there is no one I would rather go thru’ all of this things and life than him .

I love him!Sorry Girls he is taken!!!!

Righteous Kill

You should definitely see that movie it is way beyond good, at least in my opinion… I am not good at describing it because I usually end up telling you the whole thing and is not like I know nothing about movies or movie critics, but Bayo and I really enjoyed it!!!
Just in case to let you know what type of movies we like; Bayo loves anything, everything mafia related (Scarface, The Godfather etc), he also likes The English patient and The piano man, and also some foreign –spanish- movies; I also like the same types of movies, but my favorite ones are: Don Juan de Marcos, La vita e Bella, Il postino and all serial killers ones –the Hannibal type :p
I know weird mixture but anyways I love Al Pacino and Robert de Niro so what is not to like if this two are together :D

She

Bayohán says this is the best song that explains how he feels about me and I love it, I love how it is so simple, HONEST and beautiful. I really enjoy hearing it every night and it is more perfect every time I play it or read it…
It is from Charles Aznavour, we both love his songs and enjoyed listening to them together before we were even dating, but I never heard that particular song until he played it for me short after we got married, so it is even more special because it brings a lot of different memories ;)

She

May be the face I can't forget

A trace of pleasure or regret

May be my treasure or the price I have to pay

She may be the song that summer sings

May be the chill that autumn brings

May be a hundred tearful things

Within the measure of the day.

She

May be the beauty or the beast

May be the famine or the feast

May turn each day into heaven or a hell

She may be the mirror of my dreams

A smile reflected in a stream

She may not be what she may seem

Inside a shell

She who always seems so happy in a crowd

Whose eyes can be so private and so proud

No one's allowed to see them when they cry

She may be the love that can and hope to last

May come to me from shadows of the past

That I remember till the day I die

She

May be the reason I survive

The why and where for I'm alive

The one I'll care for through the rough and rainy years

Me I'll take her laughter and her tears

And make them all my souvenirs

For where she goes I got to be

The meaning of my life is
She, she, she